名利跑馬燈〈好幾年〉112利

「Daddy is back, Daddy is back.

Daddy, what gift did you bring to us.」

“Bill knew that when he heard Jay's loud voice, with the help of Alex, when he opened the door of the room, he ran all the way downstairs and went straight to Jay's embrace.”

「Daddy, you are back.」

“Although Linda was also behind Bill, she just stood quietly by the side, calm but also very steady, unlike the reaction of ordinary children.

But her voice was still enough to get Jie off his heart, her voice was soft and tender. ”

「Dad, you are back.」

“I can't call Jie his father like Bill and the others.

So I would rather hide in the room, maybe this is the best, I sometimes think, they are the family.”

“The words that Jie said at the time remained in my heart.

 He always said, I can't make Shan sad, let alone leave without saying goodbye.

But the couple now have their own children, and they still need me as an outsider.

Alex always asks in his diary every day. ”

“Maybe after next year, after I leave this home, they won't need me.

Anyway, Jay and they probably won't know my decision. 

When I came here two years ago, they already knew that I would leave one day.

So I have been prepared early. 

I heard that the children here can take the driver's license until they are 16 years old. 

Does that mean that they have grown up?”

“Alex thought, after next year, when he enters high school, he will apply for school accommodation.

He hadn't told anyone about this decision, including Billy and they didn't know, and of course Jay and Shan would not know.”

“Although they are still in the same state, time can change a person, and when they meet Jay and the others, they may become very strange.

Anyway, he has been accustomed to being alone all the time, and it doesn't seem to be bad to be abandoned again, after all, people have to experience parting after all.”

“Alex knew a long time ago that he was not a likable child, let alone a child who would make people want to be loved.

When he falls into this family even more and is unable to extricate himself, he has to withdraw.

And now he is ready, ready to say goodbye to this family, anyway, he has never regarded himself as a child of this family.

It's not that I don't want to integrate into this family, but I don't dare to think about it, because this family has never belonged to him. ”

「Alex, the exam is coming next week.

 You have decided which school you want to go to.」

“Jay held his daughter in one hand and his son in the other.

 He saw Alex and asked about the school.”

“Sometimes Alex always felt that they were alienated like strangers, and even now he couldn't integrate into the family.

Although he is used to American life, he is a foreigner after all.

No matter how hard you try, it seems that you will always feel out of place, but Alex said nothing, just nodded slightly.”

“Then take the exam, you really decide to live on campus.

Very good, remember that the most important thing about reading is to be happy, and to figure out exactly where your interests are.

In this way, it is better to find a job in the future, and you will not feel overwhelmed.

This night is the last time Jay has a heart-to-heart talk with Alex, because I don’t know if I will meet again in the future.

Frankly speaking, Alex didn't even think about it.”

“But Alex now only cares about whether he can get into high school. 

He was nervous until the day of the exam, and his stomach hurts to the point of convulsions.

But he still managed to get to the school, and later he will take the HSPT, which is the high school entrance exam, which is also in the original school. ”